First of all, mornings and I have NEVER gotten along. Ever. It’s most assuredly a genetically passed down family thing. If we get up before 9 am, it’s because we absolutely have to – because some outside force is telling us it’s required.
Yesterday I had to get up at 6:30am for my NST (non-stress test) and Biophysical (abbreviated ultrasound). That’s painful in and of itself for me. Let’s rub salt in it and toss and turn all night long because I just can’t seem to get comfortable and then need to get up to go to the bathroom every couple of hours. To say I was tired yesterday after my appointment was an understatement. I tried to be productive after getting home but the best I did was feed my kids, one load of dishes, and a load of laundry. Ta da!
I sat in front of my computer several times yesterday but the best I could do was just stare at it. Nothing was going to pour itself out onto the pages of my book. I tried.
I got a phone call while I was at my doctor’s appointment yesterday morning and let it go to voicemail. It was my midwife’s office telling me I had an appointment the next morning. I thought it was on Friday but last week I remembered wrong so I thought I remembered wrong again this week. Note to self: you’re losing it.
I crawled in bed early last night at 11pm. (Seriously. That’s early for me.) I was sooooo tired. Then my mind turned itself on and started writing my book again. What?! Seriously?! I’m too tired for this tonight! I spent the next several hours writing the book in my mind while simultaneously telling myself to stop. At 2 am, I finally gave up and started writing down my thoughts in a notebook from my nightstand. At least I wouldn’t forget all the stuff I had just written this way.
I’m seriously in need of a way to record my thoughts when I lay down at night! I do some of my best writing when I’m trying to drift off to sleep. Most of the time, I’ll just get up and go downstairs and type it out but sometimes I don’t and I usually lose it all by morning.
I got up again early this morning for another appointment. Drive down there only to see an empty parking lot. Ug. It’s 4th of July. I decided to try and go inside just in case. Nope. Doors locked. I went back out to the car and listened to my message again. Yep, she said the appointment was for today. Then it dawned on me. She wasn’t going to be in the office today so she did her phone calls yesterday but didn’t think about the fact that she was calling with reminders for in two days instead of the following day.
Day 2 of being overly tired. No sleep for the weary – family coming into town today.